I was so excited!

The other night, I took our youngest son to the first meeting for confirmation this year. I saw our pastor and said hello and briefly mentioned this journey I have been on for the last 8 months. He told me he would love to hear more about it and I told him I would come and share with him soon. He also asked me if I would stop in a time or two on Wednesday nights - I told him I would do what I could. Then, I went back to my seat and a thought overcame everything else that I should have been thinking about. I began to wonder if I needed to come on a couple of nights to talk to the kids about what's been going on with me. I love working with the kids, and especially love to plant the seed and then walk away. I don't need to be there to see if it will grow or not - it really doesn't matter to me. The unknown is just fine with me. I could not wait to get out of the meeting because I was so excited, I had to call someone. I called my running partner and she, (of course) thinks I should pursue it more. I wrote down exactly what I was thinking and feeling and ended up writing almost 3 pages. Then, I asked, "Is this it?" "Is this what I am supposed to be doing?" I guess we will see. More to come later. Have a glorious day - remember, it starts today.

As women, we...

doubt...we question...we worry...we carry too much. It amazes me how much we can handle and yet how little can break us, too. All these strengths and weaknessess we have are amazing and can also be our downfall. It is very difficult when we fear the unknown or of letting our guard down. It has to mean more to us than it does to anyone else. It has to be what drives us to follow our hearts and be who we are meant to be. Letting go - of anything - is so difficult, but neceesary to be able to move forward. There are many circumstances we cannot change - we can only control how we react to those circumstances. We still have control - maybe not all of the control we want, but we still have it. We need to do things for us - not for anyone else nor should we care what anyone else will think. Those of us that are here for YOU will support you and not criticize. Those others that find ways to put us down only win if we let them. We give them permission. And then we gripe about it. It's our own fault. I say, "No More!" We are courageous and strong and powerful. Be true to your soul - that is what is most important of all. LET IT GO!

Talk about a wake up call

Yesterday, I got back on the path I started on over 8 months ago, but didn't realize how far off track I had gotten until I got to work yesterday morning. A co-worker called me and however I answered the phone, her reply was, "It's you!" I told her, "Of course, it's me. Who else would it be?" She told me that I had not been "me" for a couple of weeks now and others had noticed as well. I simply dismissed it and really did not think that my preoccupation with the weight goal had overcome my life as much as it was apparent to everyone else. Looking back, it became a focus - almost an obessession - everyday. Weighing myself two times a day was not unheard of recently. Guess what? It was making me crazy and it was apparent to everyone else except me. The scale is exactly where it has been since I bought it, but now I have no desire to even know what it says. I had self-imprisoned myself into thinking that the number at the end of my feet defines who I am. This whole process began because of something much more than making new friends, losing weight, or this blog. It began with a simple thought that came to me back in January. I find it difficult to even remember what I was like before this all began. Nothing can compare to where I am now and wherever I am going from this point forward. We all have things that become distractions and detour us from our path - just remember to follow your heart. I read a quote in a book, "That little voice you keep ignoring is the only one you should ever listen to." - Lisa Scottoline. Be ready for your wake up call - it will come not when you expect it, but when you are ready for it. Have an awesome day.