WOW!!!

The last 24 hours have been almost a whirlwind. I went to lunch with a new friend who is there as I take this journey. It was a lunch we had planned for a week or so and really are enjoying getting to know each other. She asked me one question that has sent me reeling since. Up til this point I have been good at motivating others to make changes in their lives, but did not expect her question to change mine. She simply asked me if I would come to her office and speak about attitude to her co-workers. This may sound silly, but I still am not sure what I am learning from this process so how can I share it with others? The prospect of speaking to this group is not what I am afraid of. I am terrified of what comes after. I keep asking myself, "What can I bring to the table that is not already there?" When we are invited for a dinner party or potluck, we check with the hostess to see what everyone else is bringing, which helps us make our decision on what to bring. Every morning, I receive a daily Bible verse and this morning's was Acts 20:24 - "But my life is worth nothing unless I use it for doing the work assigned me by the Lord." I don't believe in coincidence. Things happen for a reason. Most of the time, I read the Bible verse, delete it, say a little prayer, and start my day. This one is still on my phone.
The little voice has told me over and over today that I cannot be encouraging others to be courageous if I am not willing to do the same. One of the books that changed my life is called, "Feel the Fear and Do It Anyway." Right now, I feel like I am standing at the edge of the pool, wanting to get in. Not sure if I just jump in and get it over with or do I dip my toe in a little, getting a little more wet each time. Or do I wait for someone to push me in. The end result is the same...once I am in the pool it is ok because that is where I wanted to be. It doesn't matter how I got there.
In my job, I motivate young people about how they can CHOOSE what happens in their lives and how they are not destined to be anything because of circumstances. I teach them about giving more of yourself instead of getting more for yourself. I remind them that they need to do what is right, not what is easy, because usually doing what is right is not what is easy. Now, I am being asked to give that same kind of a talk to a group of adults. My philosophy has always been that I would rather give a speech in front of 200 people instead of accept an award in front of 10. Why? When you accept an award, the focus is on you. When you speak, the focus is what you are talking about.
In case you are wondering, I agreed to give the presentation to her group.