More than I thought I could be

I keep pushing myself further. I have to. Not to please others or to accomplish some great feat. More for personal satisfaction. I have to. Every day, I become more than I thought I could be. Today, I didn't argue or give someone attitude even though we were doing something I do not like. She LOVED it. I was very much outside my comfort zone, but setting aside what we were doing, I was loving who I was with and that time together will be something I will always treasure. In fact, it might go on the "list." I know it probably meant more to me than it did to her, but that is ok. It was not supposed to mean anything, other than two friends taking care of some business that needed to get done. End of story. But, I am not sure that I can really say that and mean it. If that were the case, then I would not be typing this post. Maybe I shouldn't be. But somehow, I need her to know. Maybe she already does. I apologized for things she needed to help me with because I don't know how. But "sorries" are not allowed. I put myself in situations I would have long run from before because that was easier. I allow myself to become better, all the time. I have to be. Not for anyone else, but for me. When I started running on the days Rocky wasn't with me, I did more than I thought I could. I need to push myself, but in doing so I cannot lose sleep at night and need to forgive myself for not doing it all. I still need others to assist me to get where I need to be. We all need others to help from time to time. We just need to ask. And when we ask, we need to accept the answer. No excuses...no justification...no reasons why or why not. Someone told me that by allowing her to help me, it takes her mind off of her things. Funny, how that street goes both ways. Most of us succeed not because we did it alone, but because we accepted that we could not succeed alone. As much as we want to say, "I did it!", success always comes when others are right beside us, in whatever fashion or fit they make in our lives. Wherever they fit on our lists. I amaze myself when I glance back at where I was to where I am now. My life has changed a thousand times over and through it all, I would not change a thing. Because through it all, anything and everything, I am much, much more than I thought I ever could be.

What does "impossible" mean to you?

I was in my car today, running errands on a typical Sunday and found myself listening to one of my favorite songs that has the phrase, "impossible is not a word, it's just a reason not to try." Then, I started thinking...everything that we have in our world today is possible because of someone's idea or dream. Think about it and you know it's true. We have cars and airplanes because someone thought there should be a quicker way to travel. We have freezers and refridgerators because someone thought there ought to be a way to keep food fresh longer. We have oodles of technology because someone thought we could have something better than albums and pen and paper. The list goes on. The word, "possible" is defined as "can be, can exist, or can happen" and "impossible" is just the opposite. Here is where I get confused...how do we know what is impossible if we do not know what is possible? If you look at all of the progress society has made in the last 50 to 100 years, and asked someone that was born back then if they would've thought that what we currently would have been possible, you and I both know they would say, "no". We know that that is not true if those ideas, never conceived before, now exist and are now part of reality. Can you imagine what our world would be like if we all thought about what is possible first, instead of talking ourselves out of it because we think it is impossible? Martin Luther King Jr. never saw equal rights as impossible, even though it was difficult. Alexander Graham Bell never saw creating the telephone as impossible. The Wright Brothers knew we could fly, with the right calculations. Everything is possible. Failure does not guarantee that it is impossible. It just means that that one time didn't work; it doesn't mean that it won't work forever. You have to believe that it is possible. Everything can happen, can exist, but it starts with an idea or dream from you. Don't ever, ever, ever give up. Find a way to make it work and be willing to adapt to new alternatives and ideas. Keep trying...give it all you have...every time. All it takes is once...then it's possible.